I’m a cheater! 😧

So two nights ago I had a dream. In this dream I was married and my husband kept trying to hand me papers for a divorce y’all! I couldn’t believe it! I kept giving it back to him refusing to take the papers. He continued to hand me the forms while accusing me of cheating on him and on the window of the envelope I was able to see the number $600,000… Wait! ✋ I’m jumping way ahead of myself. The dream actually started with me being enticed by a handsome, tall, and chocolate man. He was coming on to me and I denied his pursuit. My mouth was saying no… But my body! But my body was telling me yeaaaa 🎶

Immediately after telling him no while he is all in my personal space my husband in the dream walks over and calmly hand me an envelope. He is not upset or angry but he is basically saying “You don’t want me so here.” I told him over and over that I am not cheating on him and I’ve never cheated on him but he wouldn’t believe me. In addition, the other guy continued to make little comments that implied that we had something going on. After this, I woke up and began to wonder what that was about.

At first, I thought that it was shining a light on possible vanity or shallowness (is that even a word) but the next morning (yesterday morning) I realized that it was deeper and more serious than I imagined.

I was reading my bible and I began to think about leadership and how God positions things to be a reflection of how he functions. For example, in the church, the pastor leads and the congregation/flock submit to the leadership by following the Sheppard and in a household the husband leads and the wife submit to the leadership of the husband. The pastor and the husband is a reflection of God/Christ and the congregation and wife is a reflection of the church as it follows Christ. (Y’all still with me? I promise this is going somewhere.)

Like a light bulb being turned on I immediately remembered the dream I had the night before. My husband in the dream represented God and the other man represented the things of this world that have been enticing me. If you read my last blog you would remember me saying that I am drowning in distractions. I’ve been enticed by money, success, material things and it was all pulling me away from my God. My mouth constantly says that I want Him and I need more of Him but the posture of my heart wasn’t matching up with the words of my lips. This resulted to me praying less, reading my word less and there was a distance between us that I couldn’t explain. He no longer sat on the pedestal of my heart, something else took His place. I was indeed cheating on Him. My husband is what I needed but I was distracted by what I wanted.

If you find yourself in a position like mine, lost in the cares of this world, be intentional in seeking God. Pray and read even when its hard and you don’t feel like it. Don’t get caught up in distractions. Replace it by doing something productive. One thing that I’m working on implementing is instead of going on social media during my downtime, I’ll study instead or work on a project that needs to be completed. My goal is to not waste any more time and I plan on keep going until it becomes a habit.

With my own strength, this is impossible but with His strength ALL things are possible

#StillSovereign

Supporting Scriptures
Matthew 19:26
Ephesians 5:22-24
Psalms 23:1
Acts 20:28
Jeremiah 3:15