I’m My Own Worst Critic

Having a certain level of self-reflection has often been a good thing in my life. The ability to reflect on me and look within myself has always contributed to my mental and emotional growth and development. That sense of self-awareness helps me to stand firm in my identity. What I think, what I like, and what I believe aren’t typically subjects that another individual can tell me about myself.

As my standards for myself has evolved, this once helpful trait of mine seems to have morphed into my worst enemy. I have become so hard on myself! I’ve become this perfectionist that won’t move forward unless everything is in place and ready to go. Even as I began to write this post I couldn’t decide on how the title should look and wouldn’t actually start typing until the title looked right… what!? Really Charna, just put in the title and get on with it! That’s just a minor example but that’s basically what has been happening when it comes to my personal endeavors.

I’ve been having a hard time giving myself the grace to grow. I have so much foresight that I often feel pressure for not being where I want to be instead of enjoying and experiencing the journey of where I am or rejoicing in how far I’ve come. I am fully aware that I need to celebrate my victories, even the small ones, but once I fall short I tend to resort back to magnifying my failures.

This is not the type of life God has called me to live. Time and time again His word tells me to not worry and to not be anxious. I have rest in the lord and though I am not perfect in fully resting in Him, it will become perfect in Christ Jesus. I will release my cares to Him, I will have hope in His faithfulness, and find peace in His promises. This perverted self-awareness will not sap me of my enthusiasm to move forward in what I was assigned to do.

In no time I’ll be mastering casting ALL of my cares unto the Lord and will literally be living my best life (not the fake lives we see on social media lol). In the meantime, continue to follow me on my Journey to Contentment.

#stillsovereign

Supporting Scriptures
Matthew 6: 34 (Chile this whole chapter is life; read it all)
Philippians 4:4-7 (my favorite scripture so I will do the honor of just posting it below)
1 Peter 5:6-7 (the MSG version will check you!)

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵ Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”